I didnt know that acting could be a career. i grew up learning that if it isnt academics then is doesnt meant shit. Your nothing SO I grew up thinking that If i wanst a a cop, or a lawyer that I was a failure and it took a life threatening experience to realize that I wanted to be this person, and I found out that I would never be a dancer.... It brought tears to my eyes. I Literary cried in my death bed because of it. Thats when I realize that I couldnt let  other people desire run me.. But if I did my sister probably would have died.. Only to dance harder... But even tho I would prefer her to live for my own self fish reasons as appose to her dying while I lied conscience on the grass [relying to God to let her live for my own self fish need.... AM I wrong to want my sister to live... Or am I wrong to not being consentingly able to understand how her life could have been... I would be eternally grateful to her and I still am if it wasn't for her and my mother... Who for ever been cheated out of life :[ I wont explain but I love you. What can I say.. Im a sucker for love.